8 things (0cho-ocho)

8 Things I’m looking Forward To

 
- Zambales on May 29-30

-Be approved

-Be a mommy.. sana

-Christmas

-13th Month Pay…. haha

-Next Vacation Trip

-Next Gig

-Elmer’s new job/company

 

8 Things I did yesterday

-Worked

-Drive to work

-Drive Home

-Slept

-Cooked

- Surf the net.. ofcourse

-Whatelse… Rest.. it was a sunday

-Made Love

8 Things I Wish I Could Do

I wish I could provide everything my family needed

I wish I could be a mother soon

I wish I could save mother earth… seriously

I wish I could give millions and millions of money to PGH especially to the male ward where my Dad was confined.

I wish I have the cure for Cancer

I wish I could go back in time when my daddy was alive

I wish I could make all these wishes real

8 Shows I Watch

-Rachel Zoe Preoject

-Entourage

-Gossip Girl

-Ellen

-Oprah

-Grey’s Anatomy

-CSI

-News

Im here im so lifeless.. I wan to be alive

 

 

Give me reason to breathe.. I am lifeless

 

There’s a bullet inside my head

 

 

Please Save Me

Thank You Francis M..

Thank you for the inspiring words you gave me when was mourning for my Dad’s death.. I hope I can send the same inspiration you have given me to your Kids as well… Rest now idol! Please tell my Dad how much Imiss him and love him when you meet him there in heaven where you two are both now…

 

 

 

 

 

 

Francis M had AML (acute myeloid leukemia).. the same cancer my dad had.. they had disease almost the same quarter of last year.. My dad rested Sept 28 of last year ,3 months after he was diagnosed with Leukemia, Francis M fought with Leukemia for 8 months.

Been there,Done that, Lets Continue…

Weew.. How long will it take for me to realize that I still have a Blog Site?? Im so so sorry my avid readers, How can I abandon you when all of the most intriguing,dramatic, drastic, explosive, devastating, surprising, heart-breaking things in my life were happening I wasnt able to blog!?!!? Maybe beacause all of the things that happened was too real life I was so focused in facing them that I havent had the stregnth to write about it, the courage to admit it and the ability to explain it in writing.. But let me try;

 

First we all know that my Dad died in September last Year and then guess what, my Husband had another woman, it was his officemate, at first he was telling me that he fell out of love and then I found out that he has another woman, I fought, I tried to save our Marriage, I did everything that I can, All the Holiday season wasted since I was like a Zombie. so hurt and all, I was in a complete Twilight Zone, I was Just there staring in blank, I was being strong but in fact I was being numb of all the pain I was going through. Loosing My Dad, Loosing My Husband, Loosing both Man in my life is soo much for me.. is it the though of loosing them?? or is it the thought both of them are the people where I get my stregnth from and now that both of them are gone where will I get the will and power to move on..

When my Dad died the thing the hurts me is that everyone knows me that I can make things impossible, possibele.. When everyone thinks there’s no hope in making things happen, Imake it happen.. So when My Dad died I said, why cant I make things go away this time? What can I do to make this Cancer go away, if I am what they say I am that I am the person who will make things happen, why can’t I fight the Leukemia taking away my Dad.. Why??

So whatever pain this fight for my marriage is causing me I still fought, I did not give up; I ate all my pride to save my marriage, because I chose to be married; I did not stand infront of the altar and made a promise to God and my whole family and break it, for better or for worse right? But then I suddenly get tired and helpless, hopeless actually, but I still believed in our love and our marriage, when the time I stopped fighting he then came back, I did not make the misery long, it is not right, I immediately took him back.. I did not forgive him yet i still hate him for whatever he had done; but I accepted him cause we are married. I will not be as selfish as he was, I will be understanding and kind cause that it was he needs, guidance.. So that’s what I did, though everybody thought I was a fool and stupid.. I did not mind.. this is what I want and I know is right.

And now I still cannot forget what happened, it still haunts me. But Im happy with my decision, and now we are working things out, just the two of us.

 

Well that’s the best I can do, in telling you what happened for the past month.. I will take deep breathe and finally can continue blogging with I plan to blog about

 

 

Live.Laugh.Love and Get Drunk

pain..

the biggest pain in the world is loosing someone whom you know left you because of somebody else.. because he lost that love for you that you have been holding on for the longest time and has been your strgnth and inspiration.. You will not know what to do.. you will not know where to go.. you will not know whom to talk to and whom to listen to.. You will have no apetite for or for food.. you cannot sleep nor think.. Loving someone so much will be your greatest achievement in life and it will be your biggest regret..

Your Personality Profile

You are happy, driven, and status conscious. You want everyone to know how successful you are. Very logical, you see life as a game of strategy. A bit of a loner, you prefer to depend on yourself. You always keep your cool and your composure. You are a born leader and business person.

The World’s Shortest Personality Test

Finally ” Sige Punta Tayo Sa Baguio”

Sa wakas pumayag na din ang mabuti kong asawa na ituloy ang request ko sa kanya na pumunta sa Baguio for our anniversary celebration.. Our Anniversary is October 2 pa (we have the same anniversary as our parent’s).. but since my Dad Died on Sept 28 and nakaburol pa sya noon time ng anniversary namin eh hindi namin nagawang mag celebrate.. honestly for three years we really haven’t had the chance to seriously celebrate our anniversary. super busy talaga . we just dine out or go shopping pag anniversary namin.. But hey this time he was able to take his leave and actually said “sige” to my request.. For those na hindi nakakalam, ako po ay nag-aral sa Baguio, Actually I spent my adolescence there.. 1997 ata kame nag migrate dun.. my parents went back to Manila mga 2001 and me naman tuluyan kong nilisan ang baguio year 2003.. so more or less 5 years I stayed there and those were the best times of my life… dun ko natutuhan lahat.. dun din ako nadapa at natutong bumngon ulit.. dun ko nakilala ang mga tunay na kaibigan at ang mga traidor.. dun ako natuto kung paano makitungo sa iba’t ibang klase ng tao.. I’ll tell you this pg kinuwento ko sayo ang buhay ko.. baka maka-panalo ako ng award sa Best Blog sa Internet ( Best Lived Life) , Let’s just leave that with another time na mailahathala ko ang buhay ko sa blog.. baka may mag offer agad na isa pelikula.. haha.. Anyway.. sa buhay ko malaking parte ang Baguio City.. Dahil sa Dami ng naranasan ko dito eh masasabi ko naging wiotness ang mga bundok, Pine Trees, fog, zigzag sa road sa pangayari na nag molde sa  akin kung anu man ang tingin ko sa buhay ngayon.. Kanina habang papasok kame sa opisina ng asawa ko ay nag dedeskusyon kame tungkol sa trip namin sa Baguio na ito.. ako ay nagulat din sa mga sagot ko;

Mr. E: “Bhe pagakagaling natin sa Baguio didretso ako sa Laguna para sa Company Outing Namin”

pinaybombshell: ” Sigurado ka hindi ka mapapagod atsaka may gagastusin ka ba dun o pocket money lang ang dadalhin mo?”:

Mr. E: “Wala na siguro pocket money na lang.. Eh sa Baguio ba sapat ang pera natin.. Baka naman Pwede sa Bonus na lang tayo pumunta dun”

pinaybombshell: “HINDI PWEDE! Birthday ni Daddy sa 27 hindi tayo pwede umalis!! atsaka kailangan ko na talgang magrelax, mag unwind, magrenew!!”  “Pagkatapos ng lahat ng nagyari kailangan ko na to ngayon!”

Mr.E: “at sa Baguio mo lang ba magagawa yun?”

pinaybombshell: ” OO! doon lang at wala ng ibang lugar na pwede ko gawin yun!”

Napatingin na lang sakin ang asawa ko na parang nagulaty pero alam ko naiintindihan nya yun.Naiintindihan nya dahil alam nya kung gaano ko gustong laging pumupunta sa Baguio.. Alam ko din na minsan naiisip ntya dahil ito sa mga barkada ko doon (na halos lahat ay lalaki) .. Alam ko may konting selos syang nararamdaman.. dahil tuwing nagkikita kame dito sa manila ay sobrang close namin.. Pero meron din akong mga kaibigan na babae.. iilan lang pero mababait sila.. hindi pa nga lang nakikilala sila.. hopefully this time I can introduce my girlfriends to Mr. E..  But sa huli alam ko na naiintindihan nya ko ngayon dahil gusto ko mag relax at mawala lahat ng stress at kalungkutan na hatid ng pagkamatay ng Daddy ko bigla.. Alam nya I need this and there is no Other way to do this but go to my home, Baguio City

Sa sobrang excited ko syempre gumawa ako ng Itenerary:

> Mauuna ako sa kanya ng isang araw dahil may paso pa sya ng wedenesday eh ako wala na.. hanggang friday lang kame dun, though it’s short i’ll make sure na mae3enjoy nya as much na naeenjoy ko sya.. though tumira ako sa Baguio ng 5 years I always feel excited pag aakayat ako dun.. parang batang bakasyonista na first time makakapunta sa lugar na yon

 

Eto ang draft na aking ginawa:

BAGUIO TRIP NOV 2008

Trippers: bombshell and Mr. E

Date Nov 12-14 2008

Nov 12:

8am: bombshell will depart from MNL via Victory liner (cubao_

3pm: arrive Baguio.. go to Our Family Vacation House.. meet cousins

Try to go to school too to get some Documents.. try lang!

PM: GO to dinner with veryclose friends.. Try Session Road.. Gimik with friends spend time with them habang wala pa si Hubby =).. Have time for myself and unwind..

Nov 13

7am: Mr. E depart MANL via Victory Liner (Cubao)

10am: go to Hotel and try to check in for MR.E’s arrival.. well nagatatanong siguro kayo bket kailangan pa namin mag check in eh may bahay naman kame dun.. well privacy guys privacy!! kahit one night lang… ma try nya naman kung pano painitin ang gabi ng LAMIG NG BAGUIO.. haha

2pm: Mr.E arrive Bagiuio City .. syempre susunduin ko sya ala tourist ang treatment syempre, check in kame then go na sa: Baguio Cathedral, Burnham, Wright park, Botanical Garden,Ibay’s etc..

We will have Diner sa OMG! la azotea owned by Kidlat Tahimik.. sana andun pa din yung resto sa la azotea kase yung nagsabi sakin last year pa nakapunta dun.. pero hopefully bukas pa sya.. then we will meet up with our friends and shot, shot,shot.. pero di kame magpapakalasing kase diba nga.. haha

Nov 14

8am: wake up early dadalhin ko sya sa: Camp John Hay mag breakfast kame dun.. hanapin namin ung Choco late chiva.. I fogot na basta yun  yung place where they serve hot chocolate from chocolate bars.. Iknow maeenjoy ni Mr.E yun.. Tapos we will go to PMA, The Mansion, Ibay’s, tam Awan village, atbp.. will have lunch sa Town na siguro..

12 nn: check out from the hotel and go buy pasalubong na..

Tapos will go back sa Bahay namin and drop all the goods we have bought.. Pahinga Konti then we will meet up with our friends again to have a group dinner and maybe couple of drinks.. then go back to the house to prepare sa pag alis..

12 mn go to Victory Liner and hop on the next bus going back to Manila… We have to arrive before 7am kase Mr. E has A company outing sa Laguna.. goodluck sa pagod nya.. but I know all of it will be worth it!! I promise!!

 

The smile on my face hindi iguro mawawala for 10 days dahil I really like to see my Baguio Again

My Christmas Wish List

1. Microsoft Surface

2. macbook pro

3. braces

4. One Week Stay in Amanpulo

5. One month stay in Baguio City

6. Learn how to cook Kare-Kare

 

7. SE C905

8. Mazda 6

It’s the start of something new

Oh yeah.. yan ang song na paulit ulit na tumutugtug sa bahay namin dahil sa baby sister ko na super fan ng High School Musical.. Zach Efron and Vannesa Hudgens fan sya… We even watched the recently showed High School Musical 3 with matching pila sa SM Cinema for the first time Pumila ako para makanuod ng Sine.. I slept through the whole film though nagsinungaling ako sa little sister ko na naenjoy ko yung film just not to upset her.. .. sa bahay namin its a typical pinoy home… kahit may asawa na ko kasama ko pa din ang buong pamilya.. infairness for the first 3 years of our marriage naka-bukod kame.. but when my dad had Leukemia nag isa na lang kame mg bahay para may salitan sa pag aalaga and even my dad has passed away (see you in heaven daddy) eh we decided to stay there pa din.. I don’t want to leave my mom and my sisters alone.. I am the Eldest of Three Daughters…  Si Mommy bonggang bonggang Call Center Agent.. grooving groovy at super sexy pa din.. I am proud to say my mom is you r typical non-domestic mommy.. she has been working all her life nad never talagang naging stay home mom.. so lumaki kame sa yaya or with ourselves.. very independent kame cause daddy is an OFW.. I started doing household chores at the early age of 11.. marunong na ko mag saing mag isa dahil yung yaya namin si ate TATA busy sa girlfriend nya (Tomboy Sya Eh).. so pag sinabi nya.. “ekang mag saing ka na at dito lang ako sa may tindahan, bantayan mo ang little sister mo” .. eh I will gladly oblige.. kahit nasusnugan ako ng sinaing dahil naman nakikipagtelebabad ako sa childhood sweetheart ko ay okey lang di na nahahalata ni mami yun.. hate na hate ko ang paghuhugas ng pinggan as in paglabahin mu na ko wag lang maghugas ng pinggan.. up to now asawa ko ang naghuhugas ngf pinggan dahil alam nya mababad trip ako… YUng sumunod sa kin si Ditche ( chinese term for second Daughter) sya naman ang talagang super tamad pareho sila ni Bunso.. alam mo yung kailangan mo muna magalit at mag drama para lang sundin nila yung inuutos sa kanila… ganun.. so sa bahay.. pag gutom ka magluto ka ng pagkain mo… Pag super tambak na ang hugasan sa lababao kanya kanaya nang alibi yan.. porket nahihilo.. or aalis or pagod na pagod na dahil sya ang naghain kanina.. yung mga ganung normal na scene sa isang typical filipino family.. pero okay lang enjoy naman kase pag dumadating si Ate Sylvia.. Yung stay-out naming Yaya.. magaling sya maglinis.. pero badtrip lang pag minsan eh hindi sya dumadating so titigan kame sa bahay kung sino ang kikilos.. kahit ganun hindi ko pagpapalit ang buhay namin kahit saan.. though okay din kung may extra kame na 300 miollion Pesos.. okay din..Ang mga kapatid ko very active sa music parang ako din.. nagjajamming kame sa bahay.. ako sa gitara at kanta.. sila sa Violin at minsan sa kanta din.. naglalaro kame ng counter strike.. nag titirintas ng kanya kanyang buhok.. nagfafshion show pag may mga bagong biling damit si mommy para sa amin.. kakain kame sa SM sa MAx’s na paborito ni Mami.. pag sobrang init mag aambagan para makapagswimming sa resort na malapit sa min..pag wala talagang extra money eh mag momovie marathon kame sa DVD player.. sa simpleng bagay na to nasasabi namin masaya kameng pamilya.. Nagkakatampuhan man eh in one day lumilipas din at nakakalimutan din agad… Kung ako ang tatanungin mas gugustuhin ko na na ganito kame kesa naman may naghuhugas nga ng pinggan eh hindi naman kame nagpapansinan or may kanya kanya kameng mudo mahirap ata yun.. biruin mu marami akong kilala jan (no offense sa mga kaibigan ko sa alta sociadad) pero nakakita kao ng mga pamilya na limpak limpak ang salapi pero naman as in.. ganito ang scenario..

 

Si Carla kaibigan ko.. naka MAzda 3 .. punta daw kame sa kanila at mag internet.. so sama naman ako.. pagdating sa kanila may BMW nakaparada sa garahe..

Carla: naku nanay ko bumili nanaman ng kotse

Kai (ako): Syala!! bkwet ano ba sasakyan nya dati…

Carla: Chrvolet ata yun.. 1 month na kase kame hindi nagpapang abot dito sa bahay!

Kai: O? eh di miss mo na mama mo??

Carla: Whatever?! Haller ?! Sanay na ko.. minsan nga 3 months bago kame magkita eh..

Kai: AHh bket san ba nag aabroad nanay mu..

Carla: Hindi.. Dito lang yan Pinas

Kai: ha?! (clueless, ayaw ko na magtanung pa at pumapangit na ang mukha nya)..

Bumaba kame ng sasakyan, si Carla parang nakabusangot at nababadtyrip dahil di sya nakapag park ng maayos..nagkatinginan sila ng nanay nya.. nakita din ako.. sabi ko sa nanay nya ” Good Afternoon po” … tumango lang ang nanay nya.. Si Carla sabi ” Si Kai, Kaklase KO”.  sabay tango ulit ng nanay nya..

Dirediretso kame ni Carla sa Kwarto..

Kai: Uy hindi ba dyahe sa Mommy mo??

Carla: Sus okay lang yan.. mamaya alis na din yan

Kai: O dba kakarating nya lang..

Carla: Oo kukuha lang ng Gold Bars yan! alis na din..

Kai: Gold Bars talaga.. haha.. anu ba friend may gap ba kayo ng nanay mo?? parang kulang kayo sa bonding..

Carla: Hindi ah good terms pa kame nyan sa lagay na yan.. Kase pag bad terms kame 50K lang ang baon ko sa isang linggo, pero kahapon pag tingin ko sa ATM ko 75K kaya good terms kame.. Wag mo na isipin ang bonding pag paski naman nag nonoche buena kame… sa Hacienda namin sa Batangas.. Yun.. alam Kai mas okay na ganito.. nagagawa ko gusto.. punta ko sa Palawan for One week wealang nakaalam yung katulong lang.. siguro pag naaksidente ako sa mga road trip ko sa Sagada one month pa bago ako ipahanap dahil wala sila Idea na wala pala ko sa bahay…. kesa katulad mo na pupunta ka lang sa SM magpapaalam ka pa…

Kai: Aba nag reklamo ka pa sa pagiging conservative ng nanay ko ( sabay ngiti ako pero sa loob ko.. kawawang Carla)

SI Carla.. sarap ng buhay … dami pera.. nagagwa lahat ng gusto.. nag iisang anak.. bigay lahat ng luho.. a typical sad story ng isang marangyang pamilyang Pilipino.. Dapat ba ako mainggit?

OO siguro dahil ang dami nilang Pera.. Oo cguro dahil lahat ng gusto nyang gawin nagagawa nya..pero naisip ko.. maswerte pa din ako.. kahit na sa SM lang ako pupunta kailangan ko pa iplaiwanag kung bakit ako pupunta at 1 hour lang ako dapat mawala.. eh ubuhin lang ako ng konti natataranta na ang nanay koo kung anung gamot ang ibibgay at hidi na ako pinapatayo ng kama.. si Carla kaya?? WEll sabi nya nga “Whatever?!”.. misan ko na sa mga ganitong istorya natitymbang ang kaghalagahn ng pamilya at pera… anu nga ba ang mahalaga.. hindi ko din alam ang saktong sagot.. meron din naman ibang pamilya.. sam-sama nga pero walng wala naman .. as in 2 beses lang kumakain sa isang araw.. may mga hindi nagaaral na mga kapatid.. pero payak na payak ang pamumuhay.. masasabi mo bang masaya talaga sila na samasama kahit walang pera?? ewan ko.. siguro.. bahala na si Batman sa sagot!

 

Live, Laugh, Love and Get Drunk

YOu know What?!

You know what lots and lots of my friends tell me that I am a natural comedianne.. I never fail to make their day fun and unforgettable daw.. with the silly jokes I crack and with my “imagination milyonarya life”..my drastic use of the english language.. and mga unforgettable terms and meanings ko.. the way I mispronounce words that seems very right to me.. haha..the way I well I say hey it is just my nature.. I came from a very light living family.. I mean we joke around the house all the time.. It’s normal when yuou have a very close family.. Ever since I was in elemntary napansin ko my friends always wait with what I have to say or if i’ll crack a joke or if I’ll have a funny comment on a certain subject or situation.. So sabi nilang lahat I am a ver funny girl..I don’t know maybe yes I am.. I have a very wide and crazy imagination.. sometimes you  will not know when I am serious and when I am just joking around.. So one of my friends suggest why not put my jokes in wirting maybe sa blog ko .. napansin nya daw puro sobrang intimate young mga sinusulat, especially with the death of my dad.. parang masyado na daw emo… my blog started wuith me finding a way to express my thoughts and allowing my self to say “fuck” a lot in my blog.. my blog developed into a picture storage for my friends to see our pictures whenever we go out of town.. then in transformed into a diary of our journey with my dad’s Leukemia.. the I bid farewell to my Dad sa blog also.. now maybe my friend is right.. I will use my blog to express my creativity.. though hindi ako magaling sa webdesign o expert man lang sa pag bblog (unlike inday or kwentong barbero or chiksilog)  but I will try my best to be creative enough,… I will try.. I will write more as I have more time now.. I will be more specific and more descriptive.. isusulat ko yung mga normal na nangyayari sa buhay ng isang tao, babae, pinay, bombshell…. anak, asawa, kapatid, pamangkin, apo, pinsan, tia, kaibigan, kaaway, ka-officemate..  Sabi ko nga dati I really am into writing kaya lang di ko na napagtuunan ng pansin.. At may suggestion ang friend ko na si Kiko,,, use “tagalog” more often sa mga blog mo as like his effort to “filipinize” the whole world or atleast the whole Philippines.. So okay.. I will try nga.. eto na susubukan ko .. pero sabi ko pede “taglish” o cge pede na daw.. so guys expect more from my blog.. im not sure kung matatawa kayo or mabobore.. pero sana nga mag enjoy kayo.. kapulutan ng araw… wow!!! ayus yun ah.. haha.. pag aaralan ko din kung paano maging mas graphical ang blog ko.. in short a new look for my blog site.. okay na ang hirap mag explain .. o more practice daw…

 

Live, Laugh, Love and Get Drunk