Moving ON or FORWARD

Lot of People especially family is saying that after you loose someone very close to you, like your DAD, you should be moving on… What does moving on really means.. how is it different with moving forward.. how can it happen and how will it transpire.. what really happens when you are moving on..

is it like a failed relationship that after you have your heart broken you will be moving on in the act of finding somebody else to replace your old beau and someone to fix your heart.. if you loose someone due to death how can that person be replaced with someone else when especially that person is irreplaceable (your DAD) .. how can you  move on?

It is not the same and it will never be the same. THings are very different.. People give you ideas just to ease your pain, but this I tell you. These things are the moments that you can not tell yourself to move on .. you can not pretend,, you can not buy anything that will ease your pain.. you can hide it yes but you will not escape the feeling of hurt, regret, loneliness, anger anf confusion.. You are left in space just in blank space. You can continue with your life you can do the things tthat you are supposed to do but the feeling of loss will never  go away.. you will not be able to ove on or forward.. never

I love you Daddy

 

Dear Dadi,

I miss you. I love You! I can’t let you go Dady. Di ko kaya. Why did this happen? Alam ko ayaw mo pa. It’s so unfair. I miss you so much. Baket ba ganun??   If I can just take back time and do all that I can para mawala yung sakit mo. But daddy forgive me kung hindi ko nagawa lahat ng paraan para gumaling ka. Parang kulang na kulang yung ginawa ko. Nagsisisi ako, sana I’ve spent much more time with you. Sana Niyakap kita everyday and told you how much I love you. Sana pag pinapatulog mo ko sa room mo kinausap na lang kita kesa natulog ako. Ang dami ko pang gustong gawin with you, ang dami ko pang gustong tanungin, ang dami ko pang gustone sabihin at ikwento, marami pang gustong ipaturo at iparinig na kanta sa yo. Daddy can you go back and still be here with us. Can I go back to the days na andito ka pa. What can I do daddy to have you back again

I will miss you Daddy

There are no words to write or explain how I feel about the loss that I had..

my City

 

Baguio City.. wait for me

Im BACK!!

I am Back

 

I am Sober Again

 

I was so drunk with circumstances..

 

I promise to be strong this time.. and stay

 

 

You’ll have more of me so be rady

Please Pray for my Daddy

it’s been more than 3 months since I have blogged.. tragedies come in unexpected times. My dad was Diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia, he is cwas confined in Philippine General Hospital (PGH) for almost two months. I was never scared in my whole life.. the first few weeks my dad was critical and it was the most painful scary days of my entire life, I never expected that my dad will be that sick and that he will be stricken by leukemia, the thought of loosing my dad is unbearable. Our whole family is shock and is in eeeeeeemotional depression, but we still have to fight and must fight for our dad. Now we are looking at Natural Medicine to cure my Daddy’s Leukemia. Thanks to everyone who have supported and Pray for my Daddy

 

 

Live Laugh and Love

Has been

I know Ihave been very busy with work that is why I haven’t been blogging.. well there’s nothing much to talk about since I have been in the office almost the whole week; Oh yeah and we are trying to look for a new apartment since we are looking at “cost-cutting” for the tremendous failure of the economy here in Repub of the Phils. Hmmmm… well we are not successful yet in finding one.. will look forward in having time to do the searching; oh one more thing our “yaya” bailed out on us without any notice.. so yes our apartment is a disaster nowadays.. and its frustrating.. but we are not planning to get a new housemaid yer. Mr.E said that we should try surviving witout a maid..hmm is he testing my domestic capabilites;; well he will be disappointed that’s what I say.. especially now that work is very demanding and there is a lot of pressure with me now that I am trying to run for a position in our so called professional life..  Well let’s just wait and see. What to look forward to? Well I applied for vacation leave on the 27th and 28th.. we are planning to go back to Zambales with my friends and Mr.E.. I hope he could join us.. That will be one hell of a trip;; I really need it with all the pressure and stress I had this past couple of days… Hey I could blog longer when I have nothing to talk about.. I should do this Often.. well that’s all for now.. I have notime for fashion and events but I saw some updates on the net.. I will try to comment once I have the time

Live. Laugh love and Get Drunk

ZAMBALES…pine trees and beach

An impromptu road trip, it was really spontaneuos.. we had a couple of drinks at BF after shift.. since finding out that Joy and Kinks is not reccommended for regularization is really surprising.. Ian E. dared us to go to Zambales ( a province up north; 5hour drive from the Manila); he said he knew a place where we can realax and enjoy; a very private place where we can experience and appreciate PRIVACY; Ian explained that it is the only resort in the Island.. ooohhh enticing.. he said we can do what ever we want to do; he set our expecatations that it is a remote area. no restaurant, no sari-sari store, only a house to stay in and a whole lot of fun so we have to buy everything here in the City.. food drinks.. everything.. toiletries… ; anyway; we said that if ever we can stay there for one night and one day.. we leave saturday night and go home sunday night… I don’t if we were drunk or Ian is a good in Persuading.. we all said YES.. we went home.. a little tipsy.. prepared our things, get some money and meet each other again (same spot) and drove straight to ZAMBALES…

Trippers: ME, Joy, Ian E. , Mina(Bochay_JL’s GF), JL, meng, MArkh (Kinks), MG (Mary grace.. aha)

… story to be continued when picture is available

.. it was unforgettable… wished Mr.E was available to join but he has work

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Live. Laugh, Love and Get drunk in ZAMBALES

My Travel Goal.. 7,107 Islands of The Philippines visited before 2013

My Travel Goal.. 7,107 Islands of The Philippines visited before 2013.. yes that is my goal.. I will travel the rest of the Philippines in 5 years… I have been to Baguio, Sagada, Pangasinan, la Union, Batangas, Puerto Gallera, Boracay, Quezon… Gazillion of Regions more.. My wish is that I will have the time and resources to achieve this.. before I start travelling out of the Country.. I don’t want to confuse my own Culture..Ive heard thatSorsogon is blooming with virgin beaches..

Emo Soap for you

For my EMO friends……

Live Laugh love and Get Drunk   Kai